Note To Self:

Shit never, ever goes the way you suspect it will, so from now on know better. As I know you can do. That is all. Good luck Champ.

Well…gotta hand it to the universe…I’ve always been able to ask real personal questions and receive my answer, and this time it’s been no different….thanks, I appreciate the answer….too bad it’s never been what I want to hear, but thanks anyway.

just gotta keep on keepin’ on I guess.

It’s somewhat like the “pause” button has been pressed. Well, not literally, but it feels that way. Things go o, people live their lives around me….I live my life around me, but it’s not sinking in.

It’s not frightening or anything…you have to be plugged in to be frightened….it’s just….weird.

It’s like watching a play I suppose….only you’re also on the stage and you can ad lib lines all you want and no one notices…they just use it as part of their performance.

Sometimes it’s fun….helps me to feel better about being slightly antisocial…actually I’m not antisocial so much as I just have little need for people to constantly be around……it’s weird yes….it’s what makes you start blogs some random night and keep it going for years, or cruise the internet late at night looking for obscure record labels and buying things with your new paypal power.

I don’t think my new shift has helped this any…I laugh it all off of course, because it’s not happening to me, it’s happening to that guy over there typing.

He said to say goodnight.