So today was interesting…..I continued my weekend hibernation by not only staying in last night and watching movies, but I then slept until 3pm today, and for once woke up without feeling any ill effects. Normally if I sleep that late/long, I end up feeling like I was in a fight, but for some reason I pulled it off….maybe that just meant I had it coming, what with the being sick and never taking time off work thing.

Incidentally, today was the last days for the antibiotics….still have the nasal spray for a few days, but maybe it means this stupid pneumonia business is finally over.

So to celebrate, I bought myself a guitar….online no less. I’ve seen/heard them before, but I was still wary of not being able to noodle around on it for an hour in the store like the cliché (I did just that when I bought my bass), but then realized I’m not exactly an expert at guitar anyway so what would be the use? Play the three chords I know off by heart? Plus this way I get to be like all those other beginners out there, who buy it for the looks and/or low price and have no idea what they’re getting either. Almost romantic….or so I tell myself as a reason to justify buying a new guitar over the internet.

They also had violins starting at a decent price as well….next trip to that site might bring me one step closer to having some real class haha….trick is though I know I can teach myself guitar, already started really, but a violin might be a bit tricky….I have faith though…I’m definitely a quick study.

Guess I’ll head to bed now….got to get up and dig the damn snow out of the driveway for the 30th time this winter, then head to work and explain why I never went out on Saturday, despite people calling/texting me to go…what can I say, if I’m not feeling it, I can’t be talked into it.

Adios.

I was told I too picky last night….is that true? Doesn’t really seem like it, but I suppose I could be purposely distancing myself for that very reason and am so used that I don’t notice how I come across anymore.

If so, is picky so bad? Why do people settle for things and then play the ignore game…ignore the fact that you hate how your life turned out and now you’re trapped in a marriage you wish you never had, and kids you maybe regret occasionally, and a job you want to go shoot up some Monday that you had to take because they family needs the cash and you need to suck it up.

Maybe that’s my deal. I know that when I eventually take on that responsibility there’s no backing out, so I better get it right the first time.

Doesn’t help though that I once thought I had it right and was about to take that jump, only to have it thrown back in my face.

So in conclusion, I am picky, because bullshit sucks and life is too short to waste on regret.

I totally realize this insures I will die alone someday….fuck it who cares? I’m comfortable with this I think. Yeah, it’s OK…..somebody has to keep the stereotype alive anyway.

My yearly ritual, starting from back…well, who knows really…all I know is mom always kept these things as long as I can remember. So every year I make a special effort to track mine down.

IF FEBRUARY 3 IS YOUR BIRTHDAY: You might feel that you have the whole world at your beck and call in the year to come. If you aren’t too distracted by a passing fancy or casual fling in April, you can make great headway with your business aspirations during May. Since you will be wiser than usual and will have the assistance of powerful or benevolent friends, May is a great month in which to start key projects, make crucial decisions or put major changes into motion. An important new friendship or group could be a positive influence in July.

PS it left out the part where I have pneumonia for my birthday….ranks right up there with having chicken pox on my 8th birthday.