Waiting For Something To Happen
Interesting if you enjoy seeing someone’s brains splattered across the screen-not literally you sicko…Basically this bad-boy has become a source of cheap therapy.Archive for February, 2009
Money makes you do crazy things I suppose, that and the threat of car repossession.
This week will not end whatsoever it seems. I’m sure Friday should have occurred 36 hours ago, but whatever, apparently it actually just become Friday 55 minutes ago. Bullshit.
I did manage to get myself on hulu.com tonight which was nice – anyone not familiar with attempting to reach the site outside of the U.S. won’t appreciate the work involved, but essentially you need to bother to hide yourself just to view anything – also the same with trying to catch episodes of The Office on nbc.com…..irritating.
So what did I watch? Why the hour and a half pilot episode for Firefly. I had seen an episode when it was on (quite the feat considering it existed for one season only) and thought it was interesting…..I’ll see about getting the full season and the movie for offline viewing…..buffering videos on any site pisses me off too much.
As for anything else, I refuse to comment. Work is just bothering me to no end, but once again it’s nice to have a job. Plus to be honest despite not enjoying it I am very good at it. Doesn’t mean I want to keep doing it. Money makes you do crazy things I suppose, that and the threat of car repossession.
Bedtime (I don’t like going to sleep because it means when I wake up I need to go back to work bbblllarrgghhhh), first I’ll update the tumblr – think I want to share an audio track tonight.
EDIT: Yes I changed the theme….actually I changed it like 16 times the other night as every change I hated. I stopped here more for sanity sake, but it will change again I’m sure as the right hand side is not displaying the information I want on the top of the page, on the top. You see where my dilemma lies.
…give me a hit.
I’m not staying for long because I suspect if I do I’ll feel like this is a chore rather then a “how do you do?”. Plus I have some more Peter Bjorn and John to listen to. I “borrowed” some tracks and I like it.
It snowed a lot today, like a fucking shitload, and I’m slowly hating my job ever more but things are being done to fix that.
Patience.
In the meantime my tumblr page gets no hits, just not popular I guess….bunch of cheap, stingy fuckers, give me a hit.
I’m clearly in the mood to swear. Damn it feels good to be a gangster.
…it’s funny…..well supposed to be.
Home sick today – did all my running around I needed to do (life does go on after all), and I come home, randomly decide to go to wikipedia (sometimes the featured article is noteworthy/interesting)……and here is today’s featured picture.
For those of you not in on the joke, it’s funny…..well supposed to be. Trust me.
I think a nap is on order, I’m trying to play catch-up with my missed House episodes, but my go-to websites all have them taken down, so, I guess I’ll just nap then. I am definitely tired out.
Plan B Time
So decision time. I mean, it’s not a hard decision as it’s more or less already been made, but I fairly certain I will be leaving this current job and heading out of town, hopefully within the next few months as the lease on the apartment expires.
What is different though is that where I was going to go to Fredericton and stay in the company, I think now with it obvious that the company has no interest in promoting me despite my honestly very awesome performance on a daily basis, I need to just up and leave.
Problem with this though is that my plan to go to Fredericton gets fucked up as the city unfortunately has little to offer unless you can break into governemt gigs….which not being bilingual hasn’t worked for me yet.
Soooooooo……with that in mind, I think I’m headed back to Halifax. Scanning the job market it is better, and I have been applying for jobs there the past month…..and it has the next part of the plan……university.
I think I’ll be going to SMU or Dal to get a master’s in political science. I know I deserve better jobs, more responsibility, better pay, bigger challenges….but right now no one is willing to give me the chance it seems.
Scanning jobs at the UN a while back for shits and giggles, everything was more or less master’s only…..and I think working there would be more or less right up my alley…..or at least something like that.
So with that I need to get on it.
If all goes according to plan, I will be out of here before being on the phone makes me hang myself, then I can get settled into Halifax again over the summer months, and hopefully pick up a class or two for fall semester.
Now, I mean obviously this is open to chance, just as the original plan I guess was…..although to be honest it never was, just the economic slowdown somewhat made the decision for me.
I still want a house soon too, buying in the HRM will be tricky though…..125k only gets you a small condo or a trailer in the ass end of Dartmouth.
I honestly look forward the most to getting a new job. Being constantly underappreciated is frustrating to the Nth degree.
Open Letter
Alright back briefly….listen, I try to let the past stay where it is, especially when the past is actually one of the people in my life who through their actions aren’t exactly bringing out the best in me….but occasionally they break through to the present. I feel it needs to be addressed.
So to them I issue this edict:
Let it go already, fuck. God knows I did and I’m fairly certain I have my fair share of reasons to feel wronged as well.
Just let it go, you’ll feel better and live longer. It’s too much work to always burn bridges and hold grudges.
I mean if I get desperate there’s always hookers hahaha…….gross.
OK so in regards to the last post, it’s not all as bad as it may seem. You see, thankfully I’m not one of those people who has to be in a relationship, and gets super-depressed if they’re not.
So really you see it doesn’t matter.
I was just refering to the fact that I seem to have some bad luck with these things, and despite the fact that I’m really an easy-going person, my 29 years have maybe had three of those years as a couple. That’s three years tops I might add – a high estimate.
I just get annoyed at the usual “I can’t believe you’re single” line, that I hear way too much. Honestly, I heard it just a month ago. If it wasn’t for that, I could really care less.
I mean if I get desperate there’s always hookers hahaha…….gross.
Really I don’t care, I just feel as I should care, hence occasional posts in regards to it. Happy Valentine’s Day!
Now I need to plan out my vacation. Halifax at some point (just need a catsitter and an idea of when everyone there has time off – thinking end of the week is the best time)
In the meantime, I think I’ll head to the grocery store, then see if I can find a small kitchen table. Thinking a two-chair job, hoping to find a table that’s a bit higher then the usual. Headed to some thrift shops, as I’m still poor as hell. T4s from work don’t come out until the end of the month, and I have one week this month with no pay…..downside to vacations – need to watch the vacation payout I got like three weeks ago and make sure I don’t screw myself over.
But fuck, I really want a table there.
In reality this is all pointless nonsense and self indulgent
So I’m not really one to participate in celebrity worship, or have a “top five celebs I would do” list (although I’m sure with the proper motivation I could put one together – guns to the head work well for that I hear)
Recently however, I’ve gotten to have a little thing for Lily Allen….fucking talented, cute in her girl next door way, and let’s face it….she’s Joe Strummer’s goddaughter I mean fuck…..that’s badass x5.
So my LastFM will be flooded with the new Allen release. I’m sure I’ll get bored of it, but it makes me think how much fun it would be to date an artist (not necessarily her mind you, just the same type). I mean I know I’d get sick of the flakiness I have always found artistic types have – shit I left Halifax to get away from that, my own flakiness included.
But really though, it would be a hell of a few months before I got to be too boring for her.
In the same vein, the future ex-Mrs Lee Prall search is back on (although really I’d rather have her have kept her last name the entire time married, whoever this fictitious woman is). I won’t get into details, as really it’s none of your goddamn business (ha ha ha), but suffice it to say I’m still on the market.
To be honest the older I get, the more I suspect this will be how it turns out. My family is full of divorce, being single well into your 50s and beyond, and getting married but not necessarily having the best time of it. I’m genetically predetermined to want to rather be on my own then play the game.
I can feel it deep down.
Meh, whatever. As long as I don’t waste all this free time I’ll have in the future, then it won’t have been a waste. Although single people die sooner apparently, but that just means I can retire earlier as I know the end is coming……55 retirement here I come.
A day like any other….
So here we go, the countdown to 30 is on…..it can be counted in days, not years. Meh whatever.
As far as birthdays go today wasn’t too bad. I purposely kept it low-key…..actually I was originally supposed to be on vacation this week just so I could have it not become a big thing at work. Luckily though being sequestered in the training room the past few weeks has put me under the radar and aside from a few “happy birthday”s from those in the know, I got out with anything ridiculous like a decorated desk or whatnot. (Some people go apeshit at this place when it comes to birthdays)
Mom called, hoped the day went well. Really I’d have to say it did. I mean as far as February days go in the depth of winter and all (snow storm happening as I type that will fuck with my morning commute), it wasn’t too bad at all. Really there’s only one disappointment I need to deal with, but I made myself a deal to worry about that later….or at least tomorrow. Actually I guess as it’s not really my personal problem but someone else’s, I just might not worry about it at all…go with the flow.
It’s that time of year again….
Once again it’s ripped from the headlines….er….page 12 of section T…..
“IF FEBRUARY 3 IS YOUR BIRTHDAY: Your year ahead can be highly productive if you avoid risks and are cautious about taking on new commitments. In May, overconfidence can cause you problems — especially if you promise more than you can deliver. You will need to work harder than anyone else to impress the boss, and can’t get away with any infraction of the rules. The stars improve by leaps and bounds in September, October and November, and you can expect help from unexpected quarters. Any opportunity that you receive might make lasting improvements in your life and bring you added, long term benefits. That is a great time to start a new job or sign important contracts.”
