Waiting For Something To Happen
Interesting if you enjoy seeing someone’s brains splattered across the screen-not literally you sicko…Basically this bad-boy has become a source of cheap therapy.Archive for Personal
…not shy away…
So there you have it. The election is over, the good guys won. It’s not my country but shit you couldn’t have watched anything that happened tonight and not have gotten that warm feeling inside….well, as long as McCain wasn’t your guy.
I said it here before, and I’ll say it again, I’m jealous we lack someone with that kind of charisma Obama has in this country. If only we could reanimate Trudeau.
Interesting side note, on the topic of politics, I had a friend suggest this week I try my hand at some government style jobs – but not in bureaucracy, but rather in the political side of things. They even went o far as to suggest I consider running for something. I really appreciated that, it was nice…..but that won’t be happening.
Other things that won’t be happening? That novel. I know, quitting so soon eh? Well, it’s more a case of the work in progress – the only thing occupying my mind and insisting, pleading for me to put it to print, is basically way too personal for me to share still. I will finish it, but on my own terms.
In the meantime, I will use the year leading to the next NaNoWriMo to map something out in my head, and I’ll plod along with the work I have now…..when it’ll see the light of day however remains to be seen. The players in the story will probably agree with me (if they knew I was writing it) that some time needs to be a buffer between our experiences and making said experiences available for everyone else’s eyes. I know I need time, its still too fresh. I need some perspective on it.
Also, may I say that this new Dears album is lovely. They need to make a swing back through Atlantic Canada again, it’s been too long.
It’s been a long night, but it’s full of a fresh feeling that if you can be willing to take control of your life and not shy away from getting your hands dirty, then you can accomplish anything you set your mind to.
Damn, so jealous.
In that vein, I challenge anyone reading this to pick something, one thing, and work towards making it a reality – big or small, it doesn’t matter – because in reality no action is small in the grand scheme of things and there are no small roles, only small actors.
We can all go back to feeling defeated later on, time to ride the wave while we’re still on the crest.
…sucked on the math…
I did another meme, this one was interesting though. I will admit right now though I sucked on the math aspect (I mean, I use limited math skills at work, and they most involve converting fractions of an hour into real minutes and back again). Unfortunately there seems to be no link to display the results, but if you click on the link below, I do believe you can not only view my results, but take the test yourself
With that finished, I’m off to watch streaming web TV and hope I can keep this bug at bay. So far I’ve only been struck with a slight tickle in my throat, and I’m feeling somewhat rundown. What can I say though, sometimes I get nothing more than a slight touch really…..makes up for the times I have my voice taken away, or I get struck with pneumonia.
…thought tangent…
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII think I may be sick. Finally. Everyone around me has been dying of something for weeks, it was only a matter of time. Since getting home roughly 1 hour ago, I’ve felt so terrible I’ve had a shower to warm up/take the aches away, and ever since very pathetically tried to play with the cat on the bed. I can barely find the energy to entertain the poor guy (our thing is to play after I get home – makes him fall asleep and it takes my guilt away from being out 9 hours a day)
On the plus side, Monday I get to work OT doing some testing for another step towards maybe possibly one day not too soon kinda have a slim chance at maybe being a supervisor. I’ll take the OT, we’ll see what happens with the rest of it. Right now I just want the Fredericton transfer, we’ll work on the rest afterwards.
On another thought tangent, I wonder how hard it would be to set myself up in another country? Say maybe France? Wouldn’t that be fun? I think it would. To be honest right now I’d rather do that in my head, but it’s free to think about . What would I do for work? What would my apartment look like? (I picture it over a hundred years old) Where would I hang out? How many rock bars do they have? Would I be stuck listening to Daft Punk and Air all the time? (Although not bad things really).
I wonder if this is all a cause of a coming fever. Yum.
It does remind however that nothing is written in stone. What is the path now does not have to be the path tomorrow. Free will baby, soak it in. Don’t like something? Change it, why not. We’ll all enjoy each others company on this blue ball for a short time only
really, and once it’s gone, it’s gone (notwithstanding various cosmological theories debating the nature of time and how it may exist at all moments at this particular point in space-time, etc) so take it all in.
I understand though that change is scary, and ruts make one feel comfortable. This isn’t directed at anyone really, I just always feel the need to acknowledge and post the opposing argument – comes from years of essay writing. I hate ruts I suspect. Fuck ruts in fact.
I’m bored, bring on the next step.
How much is a ticket to Paris again?
Making The Words Up And Hoping No One Notices
So this cat has taken an unnatural liking to me I think. Well maybe not unnatural, but man, he’s clearly attached at the hip like a dog would be. It would be endearing if it meant I could get away for five seconds. Of course since I was gone all weekend, he’s made up for lost time….nothing like having a cat sleep on your shoulder when you’re watching tv – uncomfortable
Which reminds me, I need to change his name again. Dr Mark H Catley isn’t as funny to me anymore.
So I’m on my own….again…the only plus side is that I can stay up in bed with the L.top and sing along to Radiohead and blog. (Oh yeah, the laptop is now the L.top, and of course the Radiohead album is The Bends – the only real sing along album I find…..OK maybe Pablo Honey is but I never got into it, and I know yes, Creep is VERY much a sing-along blah blah….and OK Computer is too I suppose, but the weird moments that would define the later part of the career are kicking in and it’s harder to flat out sing along without making the words up and hoping no one notices you’re full of shit.)
I’ve been toying with the idea of doing the dishes, or maybe using some work-out equipment, or maybe watching a movie…..but fuck it, too lazy.
It’s true I am. Tomorrow I have to get up and finally register the car this has been in the pipeline for months, and I’m two days away from the deadline. Blah. Means getting up and spending money. Two things I’m not big on lately.
I’d post a few more songs, but since none of the previous ones were downloaded at all I figure demand is low enough I can not bother.
Well I’m done. Ta ta.
Somebody Stop Me
Jesus, I’m terrible. All this work, change blog locales, and still I never write anymore. Honestly I really can’t be bothered.
Nothing really changes, so I’m somewhat in a rut, although it should be noted that unlike previous ruts, this one is good. I’ve held a job for a year and a half, which sad but true is the longest that has ever occurred, and I feel somewhat certain that I could find myself in different, more challenging, better paid positions in the future.
Do I want that? Ha. Don’t bother to ask, I ‘m terrible really. I seem completely incapable of planning out my life past the next 24 hours. I will actually FIGHT rather than do so it seems. I can imagine this must be the most infuriating thing to others, but I seem to love the flying by the edge of my seat life I have going here. To everyone annoyed by this, I wish I could change, I feel for you really, but TFS.
This isn’t to say I don’t plan for the future, think things through, put $$$ aside in mutual funds….hell I’ve lived my online life on reality websites….now home ownership, that’s a commitment.
I swear I’m not a flake, more like an ant/grasshopper hybrid. That stupid parable stuck with me at an early age and apparently made quite the impression. I now plan like the ant, but live my life on the fly, maybe not being such a fuck-up as the grasshopper was, but the guy knew how to let it all slide and go with the flow.
I honestly don’t see why one can’t do both. Why does it have to be that the ant is some type of insect Einstein, while the grasshopper is the town drunk everyone has a story about, usually ending with “…and then he went to the drunk tank that night”? Plus let’s be honest, ants are nasty and mean and there are far too many walking around inside my apartment.
It should be noted I’m quite tired – overtired by now really, as in too tired to sleep at the moment – but it was worth it because I got my D. back earlier than I thought I would. While we’re on the subject, I apologize as well to you in particular for having to put up with my complete inability to make a decision. Enjoy the ride sucker!
Oh, I sooooo need to link the song I’m listening to now… Men Without Hats – Pop Goes The World …..it’s fun.
Now that that is done, I’m on another song I want to upload. Hell, why not. Herb Alpert – This Guy’s In Love With You. Believe it or not, these aren’t “guilty pleasures”, since I think that’s bullshit to begin with really. Hell, this just came on and I’ll link it.
There’s more….much more….but in the interest of leaving some for later I’ll knock it off. Which sucks, since I want to keep going.
Oh goody, some idiots just did a “whoop” and bottle smash outside. It’s true, the older you get, the more useless and stupid that all seems. And this is coming from someone with a poor attitude to authority and all that who spent wayyyy too much time listening to Dead Kennedys and playing in bands that covered G.G. Allin. (Incidentally, “TFS” as I referred to earlier in the post is a G.G. song. It still to this day sticks in my head, andf I use the term “TFS” probably once a week with much delight)
Just in case you’re still wondering, TFS is Tough Fucking Shit. Typing it out took some of the allure out of it sadly. So vulgar. A quick “TFS” at work is wonderful, plus no one knows what I’m on about….oh if you guys only knew….
So in conclusion, if you want to be a rebel, conform then use your power inside to change things….or join an NGO….but keep the fucking broken glass away from the /streetsidewalk wanker, the rest of us have to drive/walk there you dick. WHOOP indeed halfwit. Way to rage against that machine.
Besides the real cool people reading this know that true rebels would drink that beer on the walk home, and then hang onto the bottle so they could recycle it.
OK I’m hungry and oh so tired. So I’ll bid adieu.
New Digs
This is it, the new home. I like it already, but I’m the type who re-arranges his furniture just to switch things up, have ever since I was a kid. The many years on blogspot were taking their toll, and I was noticing the obvious drop off in post frequency, but was unable to give a shit for lack of a better term. It’s not that I have nothing to say, but rather the motivation to say it was gone.
I’m having fun already, like did you know that in the preceding paragraph there were 78 words? I didn’t and wouldn’t have on the other site.
Also if you haven’t listened to Dennis Wilson’s Pacific Ocean Blue, for the love of whatever ghost you believe in get it. This stuff is Fuckin’ A.
Now, I think having said that, I better set the rating for this place so kids can’t access it…..just in case.
OK back to the grind, let’s make this place pretty.
P.S. I have to say though, that sometimes the waiting times for emergency rooms is insane here in Canada (although I’d never leave or trade it at the moment), and anyone in this country reading this should really just buckle down and get a family doctor…it’s hard work but man oh man, I could have used one Friday afternoon/night. 7 hours and $50 lost from leaving work and I was never even looked at. Ouch. Sucked.
Later skaters.



